Saturday, January 2, 2016

Always our favorite

Dear Kerr,

My timehop app was very bittersweet today.  It pulled up every time I wished you happy birthday on Facebook.  The last time was wishing you an incredible year of health and happiness, and then of course, last year... The first time I wished you happy birthday without you really turning 39.

5 years ago, Jordan's status was "happy birthday to my favorite sister Kerry Klein Butman, sorry Tessi Neuhauser".  The post made me smile.  The truth is, you were everyone's favorite whatever - favorite sister, friend, daughter, wife, mother, aunt.  You were really someone special, someone unique.  Since you were young (and had to take care of me all the time :-) you always put people before you.  You wanted everyone to be happy.  I really think you were just like Bubby in that way.  Caring for everyone and putting them before yourself.

I don't have much to say today.  It may be the 2nd birthday since you've passed, but it hurts just as bad... Just as hard.  I wish we were cruising the Mediterranean as planned (or you were in Bali as I know you planned with Tammy).  I can't convey in words how much I truly wish we were even just sitting on the couch watching old movies ringing in your 40th.  What I wouldn't give to have you back... I sincerely hope you're able to celebrate today.  I love you!!!!!

Xoxo forever and always
me

1 comment:

  1. You always say exactly what is on my mind. Yes, it hurts the same as last year. It always will. Love you!!

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