Kerry & Allan,
You have been on my minds more and more, all day. Are the boys going to be ok? Are we doing all we can to help them and be there for them? In life….
Every day since Daniel passed, I think of him. If that’s the case for me, then how are the boys doing? If simon told his 17-year story to anyone random, they wouldn’t believe him. It’s an unbelievable story of loss, but hopefully of loss and strength and perseverance and determination. To fight in life for happiness and love. He has committed to college, Issac is finishing Junior year, Andrew is an adult! Working through all it is to follow your passion, pay bills, and find joy in it all. Life can be hard and sucky and unexplained. They know that all too well, and at such a young age, but I hope they really know it can be special and great, too.
I am in Dakota’s room, doing my makeup for the day as she plays. We are rocking out to Chicago and thinking of you two. She even wanted to cuddle and rock. When ‘if you leave me now’ ended, she clapped and then danced to ‘Saturday in the park’. You’ve got another Chicago fan, Allan!! Certain songs just strike a cord. Chicago and Bryan Adams, especially. I can hear you singing in the car. Kerr. I remember our babysitting drives home, Allan, when you’d drill who ‘Chicago’ was into my head.
Bottom line, I hope I’m doing it right. What is right? But I just want those boys to know they are unconditionally loved. Forever and always.
Missing you both.
XO
Some photos of your littlest Chicago fan on your page, Kerr
I think about all the same things in regard to the boys. I, too, hope they’ll be okay. I know we are doing our best for them. They have been dealt a crap hand in life. All we can hope is that the rest of their lives gives them everything they want and deserve.
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