Kerr,
Today is November 15th. When I first found out your due date, I hoped you’d have Andrew 11/15. I wanted him born on my 1/2 birthday. Everyone said that wasn’t really possible given you were due 11/6. Then 11/15 came and went...
Andrew will be 21 on Monday. November 18th. 21. 21! 21?!
I really have a terrible memory. But I can remember the day he was born, clearly. I remember holding him for the first time (and thinking he had a big head... I had never really seen a baby’s head before). I remember so many things I got to be a part of. I grew up with Andrew. We grew up together. And now he’s the big teddy bear, far bigger than me, who’s hugs I live for and miss terribly while he’s away.
I wish you were here for his birthday. I’m not sure what you would’ve done. I try not to live every day wondering how it would be different if you were here, but special occasions are hard not to think that way. I do know things would be different... better. And I’m pretty certain Allan would’ve done something crazy ... Vegas?! A car?! Both?!
21 years of Andrew. Thank you! Thank you for giving me the best gift. You gave me a love stronger and deeper than I can describe. He was what I lived for at 10 years old and at 17 years old and at 26 years old and every day since. Kerry, you made me an Aunt. You gave me a full heart that has only gotten fuller over the years with Issac and Simon and the girls, whom I do believe you sent me.
I love you. I miss you.
XO
me
It’s so hard to believe that Andrew will be 21. Kerry made me a Bub!! I know how much you love the boys. I know they love you back. They are beyond lucky to have you as their Aunt, but you are so much more. Kerry was lucky to have you as a sister and I’m lucky to have you as my baby. She would be so proud of how you watch over Andrew , Issac and Simon. Love you!!
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